Molasses

Where are You?

There's heaviness upon my soul

Swallowing my zeal up whole

This thickness neither drowns nor buoys

Does not snuff out, but dims my joy.

I've tried a run, managed a wade

Thought, reflected, almost prayed.

I've cried out loud, deep in my mind

Stifled, smothered, bound in time

To suffer this- carry a Cross

Grieve what's missing, but never lost.

Where are You?

Reached out- or did I? I'm unsure

I feel most nothing anymore.

I've held to my notions

Go through the motions

And hoping, still hoping

A door- a window opens.

Face smiling, heart bleeding, soul pleading this passes

I push through each day's sea of molasses

Longing, still longing to 'Taste and see'

More to life than the bittersweet.

Where You've been:

Someday soon, the sun will dawn

Delight will swell where now I mourn

I'll see glee, feel thrill, hear wonder

My cup half-full yet running over

I'll seek beyond this murky haze

Find what has always been the case:

Love and grace preceding me

Inch by inch parting the sea;

Bring to light what's dimly known:

I've never walked this Path alone.

Where You are:

All too familiar with this aching

Know what it is to feel forsaken

You felt Yours keenly, share mine deeply

Balm me in purest empathy

You're in it all: the sweet, the dour

The brightest moment, darkest hour.

You are the Light, aroma, song

The reason and strength to carry on.

The taste of life here on this side

Was never meant to satisfy

The longing and hope I'd thought my own:

A loan- to set my heart on Home.