JUDAS

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I keep trusting
I keep trying
I keep accommodating
Keep denying
I tell myself next time will be different
Maybe if I'm more tolerant, more lenient
But you
You keep stabbing me when my back is turned
Making me feel like I should have learned
By now
How this goes
But no
I still hope
Still give you chances:
Daggers, arrows
And you throw
Gleefully, with abandon
No mercy, no pardon.
 
You who should have been an ally
Sell me out for less than a kiss
And I can't fathom why
You keep doing this.

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